Cost and Difficulty

Looks like today is going to be fully of laundry, studying and rain. All of my favourite things. Hurrah.

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The studying isn't so bad, if I think about it. I mean, obviously its not bad compared to anything actually bad (like war) or genuinely hard (like...um...let's go with climbing a mountain). But it's also just not really bad or hard at all. So why do I mind so much? And why more than I used to?

I think studying actually has become easier over time: I'm better at it, and concentrating takes less effort than, say, in grade 4. The real change for the worse is, I think, in the opportunity cost of studiyng. So in grade 4 school sort of changed over and we just did revision for three weeks. And I don't think I would have been allowed to do anything else if I just shirked the studying. Whereas here, exciting Oxford stuff is still going around and I have to miss it all - the opportunity cost of studying is now not seeing eights week, not going to garden shows, not seeing special lectures, etc. Which is very frustrating. 

Especially when I see the studying as less worthwhile. The only reason I have to study for this exam is to do well on it. I don't expect to retain any of what I'm learning at this point, and I don't expect to use any of it if I do. It's about debates I'm not interested in, and what I am learning is who said what. Sighz. Ah well, less than a week to go.